Another celebration of life....

Dearest little girl of mine,

You have entered the world of "three" today...which officially makes you a little girl (no longer a baby), although you will always be my baby.  I cannot believe that three years have come and gone.  Three years without your little heart beating here on Earth.  Three years without you with me.  How can it be that long?

I imagine you had a party in Heaven today.  Possibly your first party with all your little angel friends.  I am guessing that Grams was up there planning the whole thing.  That kind of makes me laugh imagining her planning a party since she wasn't the most social person.  Her idea of a party was ordering everything from Sentry....I wonder if that is what she did for you today.  :)  I hope you had a beautiful cake (if you even like cake, since your mommy doesn't but your daddy does).  Maybe you had an ice cream cake...more my style?!  Whatever you did, I cannot get the image of what you might look like out of my head.  A little girl....dressed in pink....a head full of light brown curls.  I picture you with blue eyes...but you could have been blessed with lucky "brown."  Your eyes are full of curiosity and wonder.  You have so much to think about....so many lives to watch over...so much love to give to all you surround yourself with and to all that think about you daily.

Kennedy, you are so, so loved.  You are so remembered and valued.  Your life made a difference then and continues to do so today.  Sometimes I am in amazement of the type of role you have not only played in my life but in the lives of others.  I hope you watch from above from time to time.....enough to know that you are being thought of and celebrated.  I realize you are busy up in Heaven...catching up with loved ones and learning to play with your friends.  But I do know you are watching.  I can feel it.  Your presence is always with me in everything I do.

A little over a week ago, your little life played a huge impact on the 2nd year of the "Forever in Our Hearts Remembrance Day" event which takes place in Madison (your hometown).  I plan and am a part of that event because of you.  The idea formed because of you.  I wanted to celebrate and remember your life with others who had experienced similar stories to yours and mine.  I wanted to bring awareness to others about the impact that one little life can have no matter how long they are here with you.  That is the gift you have given to me, Kennedy.  The gift of sharing.  Celebrating.  Remembering.  Caring.  Supporting.  Many people came to the event to honor their children.  Many of your mommy's friends came to honor you and to support me.  It was beautiful, KK.  Absolutely amazing.  I am heartbroken that there needs to be this kind of event at all, but I am so blessed to be a part of it and know that it was started because of the impact you had on me.

Sweet girl, my heart is so overwhelmed with love for you.  I truly know that there will always be a piece of me missing because you are not here with me, but that piece continues to heal and find ways to celebrate who you are.  As you know, your mommy's life is all kinds of crazy right now, but a very good crazy.  A happy crazy.  You will always play a role in that, my little chickadee.  I promise.  I smile more often when I think of you than I shed tears.  Imagining who you are makes me smile and know that you are happy and at peace.  You are being taken care of.  I know this.  

Happy heavenly 3rd birthday, Miss Kennedy Kate. Fly high and soar....make your dreams in Heaven come true.

Love to you always,
Mommy