I am thankful

November has turned out to be a very tough month for me...and it kind of came out of nowhere to be that way. As of late, it has gotten a little better, but I knew that the holidays may be a little difficult. After all, this was supposed to be the first holidays for my little girl had she been born in February like the doctors had predicted. However, she's not here....and I do hope that she is able to enjoy the holidays as she might have had she been here on Earth with me. After all, my little girl does deserve the best.

This week has been very interesting. On Monday, I had a car incident where my front bumper (which must have been loose) detached from the front end of my car and caused me to swerve into the median of the highway and then across traffic. I just barely missed a couple of signs and other cars, yet in so many ways, it didn't feel like any cars and signs were very close at all. I almost felt like there was some sort of protection around me. Like someone was watching over me wanting me to be okay and to live. Maybe even to live for her. As I sat on the side of the road hardly able to move due to the shock effect, I felt a true sense of connection to my baby girl. A connection that goes deeper than just being a mother to a baby on Earth. It's a connection that allows me to believe that my little girl is being taken care of and is okay. It's a connection to realize that she is up above always watching over me. It's a connection that runs deeper than anything...part of my soul is away from me. And part of my soul will always be away from me until I leave this Earth myself. Thank you, Kennedy Kate, for being a part of my life. Thank you for making me a mommy and allowing me to know what true love is. Thank you for being my angel and for watching over me. I will try my best to live my life without you and be thankful for each day I have here on Earth. You are an absolute blessing in so many ways. I love you always, my sweet baby girl.

Also, as this is my first Thanksgiving since starting this blog, I felt it was very important to take the opportunity to show my gratitude and appreciation to all of you out there who read my blog and support me with your kind words and prayers. I feel truly blessed by this community...and am a better person because of all of you. I know that I would not be where I am today....a stronger, healthier person who has come to appreciate life in a completely different way than I ever did before October of 2009. So, this Thanksgiving, I am also thankful for the friendships I have made and the people that I have met through the help of my beautiful daughter, Kennedy. Although, we all say how much we wish we didn't have to know each other under the circumstances that we "met", I know that our babies have given each of us a gift. A gift to find people who truly understand. A gift to be able to write our thoughts down and share them with complete strangers. A gift to want to share the story of our babies for the entire world to see and hear. And a gift to be there for others as we continue on this journey called life with pieces of our hearts in Heaven.

Hugs and love to you all this Thanksgiving. Wishing you peace today and always.