From this place...

As many of us in this community know, there are days that we wish we could go back.  Back to the world of naivete...back to the moment when we thought something was wrong....or just back to a world or time that felt safe.   This is one of those days for me.  A day when I wish I could just climb a tree and only see what is literally right in front of me or even what I want to see.  See what feels safe and know that I don't need to look back or ahead but just focus on the here and now.  But life just isn't like that.  There are things to do.  Lists.  Priorities.  Dreams.  Yet, I am afraid.  Afraid of what lies ahead.  Afraid of getting hurt and feeling pain.  So, instead, I just want to climb my tree and hide.  Hide and wait until the world seems safe enough to stand on the ground again.  I am wobbly now.  Weak.  I have been hurt.  Crushed.  This leads me into a deep and hopeless anxiety over what could come next.  I need hope.  I need reassurance.  I need support.  I need love.  Without these, I cannot take that next step on my own.  The step that leads to my future.  Yes, I can always look back and wish for what was or could have been.  But those days are gone.  At some point, I need to climb that tree and look at where I can go next.  What new tree I can climb.  What new dreams I can pursue.

This One Place

Sara Groves

I was about to give up and that's no lie

cardinal landed outside my window

threw his head back and sang a song

so beautiful it made me cry

took me back to a childhood tree

full of birds and dreams

from this one place I can't see very far

in this one moment I'm square in the dark

these are the things I will trust in my heart

you can see something else

something else

I don't know what's making me so afraid

tiny cloud over my head

heavy and grey with a hint of dread

I don't like to feel this way

take me back to a window seat

with clouds beneath my feet

from this one place I can't see very far

in this one moment I'm square in the dark

these are the things I will trust in my heart

you can see something else

something else