Today

Today I remembered you, Kennedy, and all of your little angel friends up in Heaven.
Today, I thought about you with pride that you are my first little girl.
Today, I remembered the five months that I was blessed to have you with me.
Today, I smiled.
Today, I walked around wearing a ribbon on my shirt symbolizing what today meant for me and all other baby loss families.
Today, I held my head up high waiting for someone to ask me how I was or mention the ribbon on my shirt.
Today, I wanted to say your name.
Today, I wanted someone else to remember.
Today, I visited your gravesite and talked to you.
Today, I brought flowers to you in the colors of the season.
Today, I was upset that I didn't get to talk to you in person.
Today, I lit a candle in honor of you.
Today, I watched a movie about a baby and thought of you the entire time.
Today, I wished that I could hear you call me, "Mama."
Today, I cried.
Today, I thought of other baby loss families and hoped they felt love and peace.
Today was a day of remembrance.
Today was a day I wish didn't exist but am glad it does.
Today, I want you to know that I love you and will never forget.